Psyche Against My Pride
We won the second place in the Speech Choir! I
NEVER expected this. I either underestimated our class's capacity or overestimated the competitors'. The judges did some reduction of points because we were not there on time that we were supposed to perform first. We were not able to watch them perform because Jun-jun did not let us so. He wants us to concentrate on our piece rather than getting demoralized by their performances. Our standing was unknown to us as of that moment.
During the performance, I have done a little acting. Jun-jun was their gesturing me to cry - and when he say cry he wants it with TEARS. So I did. It was not really hard for me though 'coz theatre acting has always been my inclination. And everytime I play my role, it ALWAYS falls under drama (me do the crying stuff) or comedy (me playing a role of a psycho, a brat, and the like). I don't really give a rat's ass on what others think. XD
After our performance I heard positive comments from the audience. Wilson approached me,
"
Xiao! I'm so proud of you! I wish I was on your place and did that part! You were excellent back there! ", clinging wearing the usual big smile. Then my other classmates congratulated me,
"Yey! Xiao! Best Actress!".Very overwhelming indeed. My ego wants to burst out and shout at the top my lungs!
"I must be really good", I thought.
But NO.
Pride."Don't let it consume your being. Don't think high of your self too much.Okay, Okay, wake up Xiao and get over with it. Others don't think that way. The judges aren't even impressed. They don't even recognize you", Psyche (Ku's imaginary friend) reminded me. *
Slaps Xiao hard in the face(Awww.. that hurts) Heheheh! Okay! You are right Psyche! Thanks for reminding me again and again. I'm so shitty forgetful. Amf. Remind me everyday please.
But...We could have won the FIRST place! I just know it. If we were just on time...
Psyche:
*Slaps Xiao againXiao:
What?! What was that for!?Psyche: I dunno... I forgot.
Xiao |3:16 PM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
