Pained Smile
Many things happened this week.
My Camera of Obscura captured some of these moments.
I had a swell time with my friends and we did lots of fun stuff.
We brought Yu-gi-Oh! cards and played again! We also went to
Loalde where they sell dresses I dreamed of wearing long before.
We took pictures inside the dressing room. That time though some dress
did not really fit for
some reasons, I felt like
"Oh, I'm a girl afterall".I mean, I really like dresses and I actually want to wear them always
but the thing is, I don't look good on it and I will become a left material.
Huhuhuhu... poor me.
Anyway...
Yesterday, I went to school to go to the library. At the gate I saw Novie.
He seemed busy, he talked to some officer, i think.
I am not supposed to speak or do any means of communication with him.
But.. I don't know why I did that... I am so impulsive.
Stupid as always I asked him
"Suko ka?" AAAAARRRRGHHHHH!!!
TANGA jud kaayo ko sa katanan.
Why did I asked that stuuuupid question? Of course he IS mad. Amp.
And when he finally recognized me, he just looked at me.
Ouch.
I turned back, and saw my friends who was waiting for me and for the possble
scene I would have made.
As I walked, what happened not a minute ago kept playing on my mind.
And as I think of it more, the pain reels inside me.
I cried.
I tried to repress it, but the pain is so severe that even tears can't relieve it.
Ku and Faith were witnesses.
Chickenshit that was so shameful. It was like a slap and a double slap to my face.
Silence really is the best thing you can give to your enemy.
But he is not an enemy for me. He is my friend and even my kuya once.
I valued him so that talking to him has become part of my daily rituals.
They tried to cheer me up. Ku made me laugh. He always does.
I am laughing but not happy.
How long will this take?
The pain torments me each morning I wake up.
No more gud mornings, gudnyts,no more petty arguements,
no more txtmesgs, PM's, YMchats, no more telepathy..
Huhuhuhuhuhu...
Xiao |10:08 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
